Allison Leah

Sunsets
Music & Lyrics by Allison Leah

You've never been an open person
But you tell me all your secrets
And I've always felt some pride
Like I was the only one you ever trusted
So others ask me how you're doing
'Cause they know that you confide

And I smile and lie for you
I say, "He's doing well, he's off at college"

Truth is that I'm not okay here without you
Did I do something wrong
That made you drift and move on?
'Cause I've always had you right here as my other half
And I thought you needed that
Never thought that you'd close off to me too
'Cause now I'm the one who needs you

Been three months since we last spoke and
I'm tryna piece it all together
I didn't know that we had broken
But my mom she still asks about you
And I don't have the heart to tell her
That I don't know what he's up to

So I smile and lie for you
I say, "He's doing well, he moved to the city"

Truth is that I'm not okay here without you
Did I do something wrong
That made you drift and move on?
'Cause I've always had you right here as my other half
And I thought you needed that
Never thought that you could make me so blue
'Cause now I'm the one who needs you

Two years ago we were driving
Caught that plane to California
And ran around so careless
It was my first time in the Pacific
And you said you'd never seen a sunset look like that
And we sat on the beach and you told me that you miss your dad
Now every sunset makes me sad

Truth is that I'm not okay here without you
So where did I go wrong?
What made you drift and move on?
'Cause I've always had you right here as my other half
And I thought you needed that
Never thought that you would choose someone new
'Cause now I'm the one who needs you

constellations
Music & Lyrics by Allison Leah

Does the moon dry your eyes while you fall asleep?
Does she tuck you into bed and kiss you on the cheek?
Does the sun wake you up with her rays of heat?
Does she smile and say good morning like the way you do to me?

Ohh, Ohhh, Ohhh
And I miss you
Ohh, Ohh, Ohh

Lights can do wonders in bringing you to me
And though you can't be in my arms
You're in the stars I see
So I'll sing out to all the constellations
All at once
I'll sing out to all the constellations
And maybe that will bring you home to me

Does the rain wash away all your sense of me
When you feel the rolling thunder, do you find it hard to breathe?
And when lightning flashes make it hard to see
One strike brighter than another, is it overpowering?

Ohh, Ohhh, Ohhh
And I miss you
Ohh, Ohh, Ohh

Lights can do wonders in bringing you to me
And though you can't be in my arms
You're in the stars I see
So I'll sing out to all the constellations
All at once
I'll sing out to all the constellations
And maybe that will bring you home to me

When the morning comes we'll be alright, we just gotta make it one more night
When the morning comes we'll be alright, we just gotta make it just gotta make it
Hold on, hold on, hold on my love
Hold on, hold on, hold on my love

Lights can do wonders in bringing you to me
And though you can't be in my arms
You're in the stars I see
So I'll sing out to all the constellations
All at once
I'll sing out to all the constellations
And maybe that will bring you home to me

better off numb
Music & Lyrics by Allison Leah and Alex Bonyata

Old conversations 
Weighing heavy on my heart 
Now I don't bat an eye
Fed up with chasing 
Every feeling in my head
And some got left behind

Was I right back when I felt so much?
Is it better for me to close off?

Easy to get hurt when you feel so hard 
Now I'm less attached to the weight of my heart
It's getting colder every day that I grow older and I
I think I'm better off numb

Overdramatic
Overthink every word you say
And let it get to me
I'm looking back on
That day I lost my head
Can't remember what she said

Easy to get hurt when you feel so hard 
Now I'm less attached to the weight of my heart
It's getting colder every day that I grow older and I
I think I'm better off numb

Take a step 
Take a walk outside
You need to clear your mind 
Feel the weight of the self that you left behind
Take a step 
Take a walk outside
See yourself in a different light
Who do you wanna see when you close your eyes?

Easy to get hurt when you feel so hard 
Now I'm less attached to the weight of my heart
It's getting colder every day that I grow older and I
I think I'm better off numb

i gave u my number
Music & Lyrics by Allison Leah

I gave you my number
Hoping that you'd wonder
What I'd talk about at 3 am
Do you like the starlight?
Got that look in your
I think you're thinking we can be more than friends

Met you in a bar
Down on Second Street
And you danced with me
And I felt so free
And you didn't go far
When I thought you'd leave
You were buying me a drink
And without a beat

I gave you my number
Hoping that you'd wonder
What I'd talk about at 3 am
Do you like the starlight?
Got that look in your
I think you're thinking we can be more than friends

Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh

Where's your friend?
Is she waiting for you?
God, I start to think of all the things that you'd rather be doing
When you took my hand, walked me down the street
The way you look at me feels so different

I gave you my number
Hoping that you'd wonder
What I'd talk about at 3 am
Do you like the starlight?
Got that look in your
I think you're thinking we can be more than friends

Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh

Will you hold me close if I can't sleep?
Will you dream of me when I'm not with you?
Will you sit in silence? Just two heartbeats
Will you love me?

I gave you my number
I gave you my number

I gave you my number
Hoping that you'd wonder
What I'd talk about at 3 am
Do you like the starlight?
Got that look in your
I think you're thinking we can be more than friends

Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh
Ohhh oh oh

sorry for myself
Music & Lyrics by Allison Leah & Alex Bonyata

Lie in bed wide awake at night
Think of what your hand felt like wrapped in mine
Used to trace your body on my sheets
Now you only visit me in my dreams

Back when it all went wrong
How did you move on so easily?
You treated me
so carelessly so I had to leave

Feeling sorry for myself
I know you put me through hell
You're so damn bad for my health and
I can't help but wish you well
I left my tears in the stairwell
Put my pride up on the shelf
Now you want me to say sorry
I'm just sorry for myself
I'm just sorry for myself

Tried to see the best in you through your flaws
Wrapped me up in games and played me like a pawn
Turned my back on every red flag in sight
And I pretended I was colorblind

You started to withdraw
When all that we had was gone
You pleaded, retreated
I thought you were distraught

Feeling sorry for myself
I know you put me through hell
You're so damn bad for my health and
I can't help but wish you well
I left my tears in the stairwell
Put my pride up on the shelf
Now you want me to say sorry
I'm just sorry for myself

You can say that you want me back
Shoulda known it was all an act
You can say that you want me back
Used to call me up and you would act so sad
Played me like a fool until I finally snapped
And why would I apologize for that?

Feeling sorry for myself
I know you put me through hell
You're so damn bad for my health and
I can't help but wish you well
I left my tears in the stairwell
Put my pride up on the shelf
Now you want me to say sorry
I'm just sorry for myself
You can say that you want me back
I'm just sorry for myself
Shoulda known it was all an act
I'm just sorry for myself

24 years down
Music & Lyrics by Allison Leah

24 years down
Head filled with stories I should write about
and people I should write back

Moved out, messed up
Got knocked down and kept my head up
And 24 is never enough

There’s 24 hours in a day so I never thought 24 years could slip away
How can I make the rest of them stay?
24 years gone of my life and I’m tryna make it big tryna take a break tryna slow down this time
And ask, “Who am I?”
24 years down

17
First time
Mind wide open full of drunk pride
Moving into college for the first time

First mistakes, first love
Some of us stayed young and some grew up
And 17 was never enough

There’s 24 hours in a day so I never thought 24 years could slip away
How can I make the rest of them stay?
24 years gone of my life and I’m tryna make it big tryna take a break tryna slow down this time
And ask, “Who am I?”
24 years down

22
Eyes wide
Sitting on a roof under the starlight
I saw you crying for the first time

23
Your mom died
And I learned mortality’s a part of life
Not a concept you fantasize

There’s 24 hours in a day so I never thought 24 years could slip away
How can I make the rest of them stay?
24 years gone of my life and I’m tryna make it big tryna take a break tryna slow down this time
And ask, “Who am I?”
24 years down

Some of us are still kids
Some of us have kids
And I’m somewhere in the middle
What have I accomplished?
Why do I measure my accomplishments as my self worth at 24 years?

24 hours in a day so I never thought 24 years could slip away
How can I make the rest of them stay?
24 years gone of my life and I’m tryna make it big tryna take a break tryna slow down this time
And ask, “Who am I?”
24 years down

what i’m missing
Music & Lyrics by Allison Leah & Alex Bonyata

I can't sit still and I don't let go
I can't help feeling I move too slow
One foot at home and one on the road
Attached to change 'cause it's all I know

I don't stay long
Don't get to know
I don't unpack don't wanna get too comfortable
I'm halfway in
And I'm halfway gone
(I’m always gone)

I'm always searching for something
Can't seem to find what I'm running to
This year left me feeling distant
I hope I find what I'm missing

 You call me up and I see my phone
I don't pick up and I'm feeling low
Don't wanna get attached so I'm acting cold
Then you call me unemotional
I don't pretend
I don't get close
I can't depend on what I don't already know
I'm halfway in
And I'm halfway gone 

I'm always searching for something
Can't seem to find what I'm running to
This year left me feeling distant
I hope I find what I'm missing
I hope I find what I'm missing
I hope I find what I'm missing

 Someday I'll have what I'm missing
'Til then I'll leave a little distance

 I'm always searching for something (I want to get close again)
Can't seem to find what I'm running to (Won't run away from you)
This year left me feeling distant (I will come home)
I hope I find what I'm missing (And find what I'm missing)
I hope I find what I'm missing
I hope I find what I'm missing

We Can Still Sing
Music and Lyrics by Allison Leah

Two months ago I wrote a note bout my hopes and my goals and dreams, all I wanted to see and get done this year
Had my life planned by day
Sign a lease, play a show, take a trip and find a band I call my own
What happens now who knows

 Find it hard to say what I want
On edge and so misunderstood
Do you think I’m selfish ‘cause I had that to do list? 

I want to disappear
Feel like my whole life’s ending here
And then you remind me

 We can still sing
We have our voices you and me
We have our home beneath our feet and a family
And we can still hope
One day when this is over we will joke
of all that time we spent inside and how beside ourselves we were

Four days in and I can’t pick up a pen cause when I do then ill have to admit this is happening
But it’s happening
Knowing now what I wish I knew then would I still have planned every day like I did?

 Find it hard to not fall asleep
Close my eyes and leave reality
When I say I’m scared
Will you still be there to comfort me?

 I want to disappear
Feels like my whole life's ending here
But then I remember 

 We can still sing
We have our voices you and me
We have our home beneath our feet and a family
And we can still hope
One day when this is over we will joke
of all that time we spent inside and how beside ourselves we were
We can still

 Ooh x8

 Interlude

 Holdin
Onto
Holdin
You and
Holdin
Onto
What we have and
Holding
Ourselves
Holding 
You now
We have 
Right now

  And we can still sing
We have our voices you and me
We have our home beneath our feet and a family
And we can still hope
One day when this is over we will joke
of all that time we spent inside and how beside ourselves we were
We can still

Ooh x8 

Holding onto what we have and we have right now

Coffee Cup
Music and Lyrics by Allison Leah

Lost myself this afternoon
Thought I’d stop and catch my breath
Opened the doors to an old café and decided to stay
And I found something new instead

 You were sittin there sippin from your coffee cup
You didn’t have anyone to fill it up
I was whistlin’, listening to stairs creak
Wishin I was hearing the sound of you speaking
I need your voice
I want your touch
And all you have is that coffee cup 

I find the words to ask your name
You get the nerve to say it back
I feel the words fall from my lips and then
Yours meet them with a grin

  You were sittin there sippin from your coffee cup
You didn’t have anyone to fill it up
I was whistlin’, listening to stairs creak
Wishin I was hearing the sound of you speaking
I need your voice
I want your touch
And all you have is that coffee cup 

I want to say we fall in love, we have it all
And very well I still don’t know
Cause I’m here trapped in the moment our eyes met
Ready to leave this daydream out in the cold

 You were sittin there sippin from your coffee cup
You didn’t have anyone to fill it up
I was whistlin’, listening to stairs creak
Wishin I was hearing the sound of you speaking
I need your voice
I want your touch
And all you have is that coffee cup

And all you have is that coffee cup 

Fly Home
Music and Lyrics by Allison Leah
Produced by Jon Altschiller
Engineered and Mixed at Chiller Sound NYC by Jon Altschiller and Danielle Warman
Musical Director - Doug Derryberry
Mastered by Scott Hull at Masterdisk

A Love Song

Sometimes I wonder how we've made it this far
'Cause I see you with her and I don't feel a spark
But keep pretending and keep me in the dark
That's what we both agreed upon

This is a love song
Wanted you to know
This is a love song
With you I am home
Although it drives me mad
We've already picked this road
This is a love song
Hold on here we go

I try not to know you, not to feel this way
But while I'm hiding, our connection stays
This is neverending
Look at what you've done
We left each other still we can't move on

This is a love song (This is a love song)
Wanted you to know (Wanted you to know)
This is a love song (This is a love song)
With you I am home (I am home)
Although it drives me mad (It drives me mad)
We've already picked this road (Picked this road)
This is a love song (This is a love song)
Hold on here we go

When you look at her do you think of me?
'Cause when I'm with him you're all I see
When you look at her do you think of me?
'Cause when I'm with him you're all I see

This is a love song (This is a love song)
Wanted you to know (Wanted you to know)
This is a love song (This is a love song)
With you I am home (I am home)
Although it drives me mad (You know it drives me mad)
We've already picked this road (But we picked this road)
This is a love song (This is a love song)
Hold on here we go

Where Do Hearts Go

"Where do you feel us ending up?" you said
When I thought we were happiest right now
You told me you wanted a plan
And that I wasn't in the one you had

Why did I let myself keep falling?
I could have stopped but now there's no choice
And so it goes

Where do hearts go when they need healing?
'Cause there are no stitches to rid me of this pain I'm feeling
Where do words go when they're unspoken?
'Cause I can't find a way to tell you that I'm broken

I still pretend that I can be here on my own
But seeing you reminds me I'm alone

Why did I let myself keep falling?
I could have stopped but now there's no choice
I've hit the ground

Where do hearts go when they need healing?
'Cause there are no stitches to rid me of this pain I'm feeling
Where do words go when they're unspoken?
'Cause I can't find a way to tell you that I'm broken

I can’t be the one to put myself back together now
I don’t have the words to write my own happy ending
I can’t be the one to put myself back together now
I don’t have the words to write my own happy ending

Where do hearts go when they need healing?
'Cause there are no stitches to rid me of this pain I'm feeling (There are no stitches)
Where do words go when they're unspoken? (Where do words go?)
'Cause I can't find a way to tell you that I'm broken (Oh, to tell you that I'm broken)
To tell you that I'm broken

Black and white

Help,
I’ve seen someone fall again
He’s on the ground
And all he had was both his hands
Scared to pull himself back up again
And stand proud and tall
Knowing the consequence

Up again down again catch us we’re fallin'
See the world clear and listen to us callin'
Stop and close your eyes
Look up to the light and see
Everyone who’s fought to save your life
They were both black and white 

I,
I met a man the other day
And he recalls fighting hate for over decades
See?
He wants his kids to learn to dream
And play outside
Unafraid of the streets

Up again down again catch us we’re fallin'
See the world clear and listen to us callin'
Stop and close your eyes
Look up to the light and see
Everyone who’s fought to save your life
They were both black and white 

Look up (Up again down again catch us we’re fallin')
Look up (See the world clear and listen to us callin')
Look up and see the same stars I do (They were both black and white) 
Look up, look up to your heaven (Look up to the light and see)
But remember, whoa remember too (Up again down again catch us we're fallin')
Look up, we look up to the same stars
So the same God that you believe in is mine too

Up again down again catch us we’re fallin'
See the world clear and listen to us callin'

colorado

We're on the road now
And all I see is an endless sky in front of me
And I’m thinking outloud
'Cause it’s just us now
And only music
And other cars passing me

Will I keep up?
Am I enough?
Will or ride fast and free or get caught in the breeze?
Am I tough?
Have I grown up?
And have I proven to be everything that I see in myself?
'Cause I don’t know where my life will lead
I don’t know where this road is taking me
But I’ve got you in the passenger seat sitting beside me
Yeah I’ve got you in the passenger seat, right here beside me
So I think I’ll keep driving

We’ve reached the highway
We travel quietly
We hear our song begin to play
You sing along
I take in the moment
I try not to notice the water in your eyes
'Cause it’s the kind that matches mine

Will I keep up?
Am I enough? (Oh, my time's come)
Will or ride fast and free or get caught in the breeze? (I am moving on)
Am I tough?
Have I grown up?
And have I proven to be everything that I see in myself?
'Cause I don’t know where my life will lead (Off I go)
I don’t know where this road is taking me (On my own)
But I’ve got you in the passenger seat sitting beside me
Yeah I’ve got you in the passenger seat, right here beside me
So I think I’ll keep driving

We’ve reached your doorway
And now you’re here to stay
One quick goodbye, before my next hello
And I hit the road
My car is packed, and I have a map
I start to go
I hit the gas and say “Colorado”

I will keep up (Oh, my time's come)
And I'm enough
And I’ll ride fast and free till I’m passing the breeze
And I’m tough (I am moving on)
'Cause I've grown up
And I'll use every instinct that you've instilled in me
'Cause I don’t know where my life will lead (Off I go)
I don’t know where this road is taking me (On my own)
But I’ve got you in the passenger seat sitting beside me
Yeah I’ve got you in the passenger seat right here beside me
So I think I’ll keep driving

everything you wanted

Help catch me I’m falling
Can’t you hear me calling?
Tried my best to give you
Everything you wanted

Guess it wasn’t enough
Guess it wasn’t the right time
To tell you everything I’ve been hiding
You know I tried to be tough
But it just didn’t feel right
I need you to know who I am

So take me away from this place
Pull me in and shut me down
Oh take me away from the chase
'Cause I know I don't need you now
I’m stronger on my own
Stronger on my own 

All I hear are two hearts beating
Listen close to find the meaning
Tried my best to give you answers
But you’re burdened by your own feelings

I can feel myself fall
I can hear myself screaming
I pray that all this time I’ve been dreaming
But I can’t open my eyes
And you still won’t believe me
I need you to know who I am

So take me away from this place
Pull me in and shut me down
Oh take me away from the chase
'Cause I know I don't need you now
I’m stronger on my own
Stronger on my own 

I’m swearing the truth
And looking at you
Can't you accept me knowing who I am?
I’m swearing the truth
And looking at you
Please just accept me knowing who I am

So take me away from this place
Pull me in and shut me down
Oh take me away from the chase
'Cause I know I don't need you now
I’m stronger on my own
Stronger on my own
Stronger on my own
Stronger on my own

Help catch me I’m falling
Can’t you hear me calling?

Fly home
 

Fly home
Fly home
Fly home

You’re like a little bird
Born into a world that was bigger than yourself
And soon you’ll have to fly
You’ll have to leave your cage and your fears on the shelf
Then you’ll find the sky
You’ll see the earth in a whole new light
Why would you ever go back?
Why live with those in a cage when they don't know your life

They don’t see who you are
They see makeup I see your scars
Once they know what you need
Then they’ll see why you’re beautiful to me

Next you flew to the sea
You said you had to escape all the wrong in the cage
You asked if you could stay
And then decided to tell me what was filling you with rage
Tell me what you’ve learned
Tell me what you’ve found on this trip to the sea
You said, "I found home"
Once you left your cage, you found home with me

They don’t see who you are
They see makeup I see your scars
Once they know what you need
Then they’ll see why you’re beautiful to me

Fly home
Fly home
Fly home, even though you'd fly away from me
Fly home
Fly home
Fly home, even though you'd fly away from me
Fly home
Fly home
Fly home, fly

Then they'll see who you are
No more makeup, they'll see your scars
And they'll know what you need
nd they'll see why you're beautiful to me

A Love Song
Music and Lyrics by Allison Leah
All vocals - Allison Leah
Acoustic Guitars - Doug Derryberry and Allison Leah
Drums/Percussion - John Hadfield
Bass - John McFaul
Synthesizer - Eddie Martinez

Where Do Hearts Go
Music and Lyrics by Allison Leah
All vocals - Allison Leah
Piano - Doug Derryberry
Guitar & Bass - Doug Derryberry
Drums/Percussion - John Hadfield

Black and White
Music and Lyrics by Allison Leah
All vocals - Allison Leah
Acoustic Guitars - Doug Derryberry and Allison Leah
Electric Guitar - Doug Derryberry
Drums/Percussion - John Hadfield

Coffee Cup
Music and Lyrics by Allison Leah
Arrangement by Jon Altschiller
Engineers: Jon Altschiller and Danielle Warman at ‘Chiller Sound
Asst. Engineer - Sara Messias
Lead Vocal - Allison Leah
Guitar - Allison Leah
Bass - Jesse Williams
Keys/Mellotron - Tom West
Percussion - John Hadfield
Background Vocals - Allison Leah
Special thank you to PK Pandey & SonoTone Strings